blogy...I'm so sry tat I abundant u for long time liao....I noe u the only one who wont mad at me....I wan to say..Happy belated new year...valentine..Chinese new year n much more.. n i lov u more than anybody..
Lately I been busy for my study..I noe tis sem even more worse..last sem is lik a training o preparation for this sem...haih...but still when I'm lonely o happy...I will think bout u..Do u?? tis is lik a hell for me...but i try to work hard on it...I consider myself doin not very well for the previous sem...hopefully tis sem can pass..
I wanted to tell u my everything but time consuming...I hope u understand me...i noe u wil un me. tats y i luv u so much...u been always open d door for my...
today is a moody day..everybody is telling me bout his/her feeling...but did i ever tell them mine too?? I hope i can..but i cant do it..dunno why...I only can tell u
..Relationship wit bf is unstable lately ..and i dunno y...fall in luv wit someone???..How if i say yes...but it does not effect my life coz is impossible...well dbsk is my lover but lately they gone in my life coz I noe tat i only will coz them trouble...i noe u noe wat i mean...In luv wit somebody around me??? ya..i do lik someone but tat i noe is impossible coz it never success till now...so wat for put hope on it..as long i enjoy it then is ok liao....Who PM???I even cant un myself sometimes..betray myself??? dunno...hurt myself...mayb..
feel lik waiting someone to help me get rid out from the hole...i always feel so n now i'm waiting someone who can understand me n help me out..but tat person never seen...who can really understand me..I hope someday there someone there for me..Who in luv wit me?? only myself even my bf i hope is not...y?? coz i think he might find d wrong person coz i am....
i'm tired of controlling ppl life n my life..I can giv up others but not mine...mine is to help control the others....wat shud i do...i try to cry but it not gonna works...y nobody can un me..am i a freak for u.....look at me lik a freak....y they can be so popular n why i'm always wit those ppl..n it hurt so bad although i get used to it....I din get any benefit except see how their life goes on... I'm happy to noe them although they might forget bout me....Tq for those who appreciate me...My kind of ppl..for the moment i only find a few....tats d person i can talk to..at least he will un half half rather than none..but i dare not to talk bout it..
I losing my mind....I feel lik giving up all d guys n bac to zero......restart everything...coz i did something wrong??? no..coz it making me sad n depressed...
wat shud i do.....i nid some time..spend wit me sometime..I miss u so much tat i hope one day u will understand me n be with me always...I wont giv up on u..tats all i noe....I'm sry for wat i hav done but i luv u.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Thursday, December 3, 2009
the finale has begun
wat a boring day....jz settle everything n now tomolo os the last day of lecture week n here goes study week n final...Time pass by so fast...seem lik din do anything at all....Dunno wat to do during the study week...Din plan bac KL coz nid to concentrate on my study since my performance is quite bad for previous sem...Haih...many thing happen...happy o sad....seem lik wind pass thru....nothing to talk today..got a bit dizzy...not feel so well..wanted to ajak them yamcha but PM d skill only manage few of them...giving up...try to stay at hostel n hav my personal time.....Hopefully everything will be okey...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
First in UTAR..
Today I giv ppl scold...on fb...lantak la dia baca my blog o not...As I hav the rite too say watever i lik..jz lik he did on fb...at least I din shot him bac on fb..I talk to my bloggy bout it...I can tell i seldom(almost none) feel so "uncomfortable" wit ppl or even my fren..as all my fren, i'm fine adapt wit them...
Here the story goes...well i dare to say the truth...His name is Jeremy my coursemate..THIS SEMESTER he have been terminated n required to retake some of the sub in nx sem in order to continue his study..Consider 'HOLIDAY' for tis sem...I'm taking a retake subj where the only class he will go for THIS SEMESTER..Somehow our midterm exam (consist 10%, 3papar) is not conduct on lecture hour..n we hav to plan due to different time subj taken by us...Hence we ad make dicision n confirm the date n time...Since he did o did not come for tat day but we been discussing for some time liao bout midterm...other day i saw him come for practical class...coz we r busy wit d experiment n no time to hav a talk ..I ask him whether he wan to come for the exam...then he say "why i shouldn't come???"...I ma say if he wan i ma tell him d time n date if not then nvm, nothing lo..then his face turn black..I noe him well so i jz say the time n date to him..he record down o not is his personal behaviour la....Then settle tat case...
Today we having our tutorial at 12-1pm which hav been discussed wit lecture since last week...is a special plan where we slot a time for class... then today on fb..this is wat he say:" this is how my classmate notified me about classes.'hey do you want to come for the midterm, if you want i tell you, if not i dun want to tell you' and now today no one tell me about changes of time for the tutorial class. i came to the campus at 4pm for the 12-1pm class. It is not that i dun want to come to class. it's because you bitches didn't inform me a single message"...
This is wat i get for being kind to inform him...there only 3 ladies in tat class...so i'm the bitch....ya ..I am...then his the son of a bitch ....I get pissed off...By the way I wan to clarified something....tutorial is yesterday 4pm not today 4pm..Today suppose no tutorial....then why he come at 4pm.....I'm really 'blur ' lol....was tat my fault tat he din come for some lecture class n u blame us for not telling u..
Yesterday lecture change d date for one of the midterm paper n he din come too....N i'm gonna get my mouth shut...speechless
i'm not gonna explain so much jz giv u all hav a point of view bout this case....
Here the story goes...well i dare to say the truth...His name is Jeremy my coursemate..THIS SEMESTER he have been terminated n required to retake some of the sub in nx sem in order to continue his study..Consider 'HOLIDAY' for tis sem...I'm taking a retake subj where the only class he will go for THIS SEMESTER..Somehow our midterm exam (consist 10%, 3papar) is not conduct on lecture hour..n we hav to plan due to different time subj taken by us...Hence we ad make dicision n confirm the date n time...Since he did o did not come for tat day but we been discussing for some time liao bout midterm...other day i saw him come for practical class...coz we r busy wit d experiment n no time to hav a talk ..I ask him whether he wan to come for the exam...then he say "why i shouldn't come???"...I ma say if he wan i ma tell him d time n date if not then nvm, nothing lo..then his face turn black..I noe him well so i jz say the time n date to him..he record down o not is his personal behaviour la....Then settle tat case...
Today we having our tutorial at 12-1pm which hav been discussed wit lecture since last week...is a special plan where we slot a time for class... then today on fb..this is wat he say:" this is how my classmate notified me about classes.'hey do you want to come for the midterm, if you want i tell you, if not i dun want to tell you' and now today no one tell me about changes of time for the tutorial class. i came to the campus at 4pm for the 12-1pm class. It is not that i dun want to come to class. it's because you bitches didn't inform me a single message"...
This is wat i get for being kind to inform him...there only 3 ladies in tat class...so i'm the bitch....ya ..I am...then his the son of a bitch ....I get pissed off...By the way I wan to clarified something....tutorial is yesterday 4pm not today 4pm..Today suppose no tutorial....then why he come at 4pm.....I'm really 'blur ' lol....was tat my fault tat he din come for some lecture class n u blame us for not telling u..
Yesterday lecture change d date for one of the midterm paper n he din come too....N i'm gonna get my mouth shut...speechless
i'm not gonna explain so much jz giv u all hav a point of view bout this case....
Monday, November 2, 2009
May u rest in peace, my frenz
Lately there's alot of sad casses happen around me.
To our dear '2005 Ketua pengawas of SMK Seksyen 1 Bdr Kinrara', who passed away last wednesday evening 3.32pm at HKL. I'm sorry i wasnt there by ur side when u need me. Althougth we r not very close but once v r. I still rmb the first time knowing u..U impressed me alot..Tat time i was learning my mandarin while u ad can speak fluently. U r very special coz the only handsome malay guy who noe speak mandarin. u take this advantage meet alot of frens...Sometimes ppl try to critics bout malay infront of them..u din get mad but u try to advise them not to say them bad...tats why ppl less critics coz of u..haha..impressive...U help lots of ppl while there were spot check..thou u r the ketua pengawas but u still willing help them...inform them there is spot check n even help them to hide liquid paper n hp....we all rmb how kind u were to us.. how work hard u are....ur voice is still in my mind...when u shout while we were 'berkawat'....those strong voice which we obey n thou cant been heard anymore but is still fresh in my mind.Those day we went outdoor activities...u lead n help us a lot..Thou i forget r v once in a team but I always think u r always been here wit us. I'm so sorry for the past few month I dun hav the opportunity o guts to visit u. When i back to KL i meet our classmate. She told me tat u r sick (bone cancer)...I was shock and concern...She told me, u in last stage of cancer...but recovering after several chemotheraphy...I feel relief after heard tat and i tot u can make it...Tat time I only stay at Kl for few days...din spend some time visit u...Until last week..on facebook...Idrul post comment tat u hav leave us....My eyes were watery..tears fall in heart...Everything is too late..all I can say is I'm sorry if i done anything wrong to u. Hope our relaitionship will continues live on.....Azrin~
I'm sorry I dun hav a chance to hav a photo wit u....But u r always deep in my heart..
To our Kampar campus UTAR student...James Khor Wan Kai, 20; Yew Shy Gin, 19 and Yew Ghim Chnieh, 20. drowned after they were swept away by strong current at the Batu Berangkai waterfalls on sunday evening...All i can say it was faith..thou they leave us without a word.....It was a disaster for me..Although I not ur close fren but v r once Unimate. Mayb I hav seen u o may not...but is not important anymore...I hope u may rest in peace..my frens..
To our dear '2005 Ketua pengawas of SMK Seksyen 1 Bdr Kinrara', who passed away last wednesday evening 3.32pm at HKL. I'm sorry i wasnt there by ur side when u need me. Althougth we r not very close but once v r. I still rmb the first time knowing u..U impressed me alot..Tat time i was learning my mandarin while u ad can speak fluently. U r very special coz the only handsome malay guy who noe speak mandarin. u take this advantage meet alot of frens...Sometimes ppl try to critics bout malay infront of them..u din get mad but u try to advise them not to say them bad...tats why ppl less critics coz of u..haha..impressive...U help lots of ppl while there were spot check..thou u r the ketua pengawas but u still willing help them...inform them there is spot check n even help them to hide liquid paper n hp....we all rmb how kind u were to us.. how work hard u are....ur voice is still in my mind...when u shout while we were 'berkawat'....those strong voice which we obey n thou cant been heard anymore but is still fresh in my mind.Those day we went outdoor activities...u lead n help us a lot..Thou i forget r v once in a team but I always think u r always been here wit us. I'm so sorry for the past few month I dun hav the opportunity o guts to visit u. When i back to KL i meet our classmate. She told me tat u r sick (bone cancer)...I was shock and concern...She told me, u in last stage of cancer...but recovering after several chemotheraphy...I feel relief after heard tat and i tot u can make it...Tat time I only stay at Kl for few days...din spend some time visit u...Until last week..on facebook...Idrul post comment tat u hav leave us....My eyes were watery..tears fall in heart...Everything is too late..all I can say is I'm sorry if i done anything wrong to u. Hope our relaitionship will continues live on.....Azrin~
I'm sorry I dun hav a chance to hav a photo wit u....But u r always deep in my heart..
To our Kampar campus UTAR student...James Khor Wan Kai, 20; Yew Shy Gin, 19 and Yew Ghim Chnieh, 20. drowned after they were swept away by strong current at the Batu Berangkai waterfalls on sunday evening...All i can say it was faith..thou they leave us without a word.....It was a disaster for me..Although I not ur close fren but v r once Unimate. Mayb I hav seen u o may not...but is not important anymore...I hope u may rest in peace..my frens..
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Holloween~
hello...jz to wish everybody Happy Holloween...I din celebrate but hope others will hav fun wit it...My eye is getting better..Hopefully will fully recover and it nid some time to prove it...btw...my sunglasses lost liao n i hav to cover my eye while in front my lappy...lately busy study n do assgn report n homework...haven plan bac to KL for any celebration.....noe today is Holloween....din plan to be anything...haha.. so..Happy Holloween...
Monday, October 26, 2009
eye infection again
Sunday early morning..my right eye become worse.infection due to microb attack...haih...swollen lik a pig head, redness and watery..rush to the hospital...they help me to wash my eye...pain...flourecent dye..saw d infection patch...quickly write letter admit to ipoh hospital ophthamogy specialist..Too bad is was sunday..clinic close..Today skip all the class...MC...went to Ipoh by myself n by bus...9.30am start my journey from kampar to ipoh ...ask the bus tic ppl....then reach there ask ppl here n there..finally ...reach d clinic at 11.00am.. i'm suppose to go hospital but in d end went to clinic pula...I should drop at nx station but they lik say is here is here...the clinic n hospital is side by side but seem far n I hav to walk all the way next building...Fine...register n wait for my call...lucky lunch hour the doc still willing to see patient..consider good la. then from 11 wait 3hours only my turn... It takes only 15 minute n everything is done....guess wat did the doc say.." I din see any problem with ur eye !!! =.=ll...I check ur eye no any tearing o infection...mayb it just some allergy" O.O wow...tats good..then why my vision is blur? "mayb ur eye is watery so see thing blur,ur vision is good, the test show eye sight is good"....wakao...thank u man~ i'm speechless.... in the end he giv me some allergy eye drop and eye mo...YA! is those farmasi those eye mo...moisturizer those...If I'm allergy then better dun prescribe me those eye drop contain preservative lo...I better use back my non-preservative eye drop where one day one dose better...leave w/o paying coz i'm a student LOL....go cafe buy some bread then head to bus station...after asking ppl for direction, finally able to take bus bac to kampar....bout 5pm..reach kampar...celaka punya bus..he din turn in to new town instead drop me at old town...panlai la...cost me rm6 call uncle fetch me bac hostel...return tic to ipoh only rm7.5. old town to new town bout the same..sweat lol. suan liao lo...really no eye see...bac hostel rain then terus tido..dinner time only go out fetch my bike back coz i left it at bus station in morning...ko lian my babe..all wet...Well hopefully my eye recover soon...tomolo continue my class..Hwaiting!!
This is wat happen to my eye on sunday morning...if u can notice there is some green patch on my eye cornea..tat is d so-called wound or infection which dye wit flourescent. too bad cant compare both eye as I only focus on tat patch of greeny then n i try to open as big i can..u can see my upper eye lid is swollen.no addt effect..is tat part u see bengkak is really bengkak...actually flourescent is yellow dye..haha =.-ll
This is wat happen to my eye on sunday morning...if u can notice there is some green patch on my eye cornea..tat is d so-called wound or infection which dye wit flourescent. too bad cant compare both eye as I only focus on tat patch of greeny then n i try to open as big i can..u can see my upper eye lid is swollen.no addt effect..is tat part u see bengkak is really bengkak...actually flourescent is yellow dye..haha =.-ll
Monday, October 19, 2009
Back to Kampar, new sem has begun
This morning jz bac to kampar...tired coz last nite attend cousin wedding dinner then after dinner head to wei house play mahjong(kaki judi) till 2am..early morning bout 7am wake up take bus to train station for 9am train..reach kampar at 1130 then reach hostel do some cleaning bout 1230 go Uni acc my fren for his registration for appeal...intend to attend 2pm class but the class suddenly cancel liao..Haih..wat for i come bac so early leh....haih..Went tesco buy some food then bac hostel bout 4pm...clean clean ,rest rest then sleep...till 6pm..take my bath n wait for goin out dinner...after dinner bac hostel make some phone call then now..talking wot my blogy...Do i miss KL..well ..a bit...I can say i do not feel weird o uncomfortable bout Kampar..get used to it ..no feel when i came bac..but a bit lonely..well I guess after few days everything gonna be okey n i nid to study hard for my future...ganbateh..n wish me luck...I'm glad I pass for last sem...Thank you...Updating soon..
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