study hard pm..

I shud study hard from now on ...coz lately i been stress wit some unnecessary thing o so-called silly thing.....haih..Its time to get off my chest before its too late.Thou is too late but still i hav to let i go...All mid term test is around the corner n i shud keep goin w/o looking bac at U....i shud had let u go now n i will....try to forget bout it
Well talk bout other thing..y i'm so free?? hehe..coz i miss u XP....I wan tell u all my thing...so ma find u lo. Test is coming n hav a lot of things to do..not as many as last sem..tis sem a bit relax jor...so its time for me to fight for glory...i been quite lazy since then...so its time to force myself to study hard..will u support me? be with me?..I noe u will..everything goes well....Planing go penang on merdeka if everything gone well...hope can hav a nice holiday b4 my final n i must not failed tis sem if not....gone my future..btw..hope my industrial training will success... Gambateh PM...go study la...happy happy babee

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付出的从来不会等于收回
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多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼
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爱爱爱爱了几回 也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着 谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回 也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会 狠心对谁
男人男人 多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼
女人女人 我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生 来换你的快乐一生
男人男人 多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼
女人女人 我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼 一等再等
你就是我等的那个人
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New semester started

Hey..blogy~~Its been a long long time..I'm here again. time for a chat.
Ya, new sem has start n is the end of 5th week..as time pass by very fast. Tomolo will hav my first mid term. nervous?? well, abit abit la. as i get use to it...those thing moment keep on repeating as i getting numb to it. History review back again...n i hav to start all over again...haih....try my best tis sem.. not to let myself disappointed again.. Everything is getting better i hope....waiting for company to accept me for nx coming industrial training.. hope can shift to a better environment for living. As i found the room tat i'm staying , the feng shui is not good ..haha..tats wat my mum said...as many bad thing happen to me e.g: my eye, my health, my wealth even my study...lately my foot and palm been affected where small pinpoint blister growing all over my hand..the causes is unknown and it jz suddenly come n now is getting better as recovering...really duno wat happen to me..always sini sakit sana sakit...planning ti shift a better n cheaper place as I dun wan let Danish House untung byk ...celaka punya budak..tipu student punya duit..tidak bermoral langsung...even abit abit also wan tipu..haih..mata duitan..really speechless...got time I will 'cheog sui' Danish management ppl....betapa teruk ppl in tis place.
anyway..its time for me to study...hope tis sem i work hard for glory~~bye bye

I'm sorry but i love u

blogy...I'm so sry tat I abundant u for long time liao....I noe u the only one who wont mad at me....I wan to say..Happy belated new year...valentine..Chinese new year n much more.. n i lov u more than anybody..
Lately I been busy for my study..I noe tis sem even more worse..last sem is lik a training o preparation for this sem...haih...but still when I'm lonely o happy...I will think bout u..Do u?? tis is lik a hell for me...but i try to work hard on it...I consider myself doin not very well for the previous sem...hopefully tis sem can pass..
I wanted to tell u my everything but time consuming...I hope u understand me...i noe u wil un me. tats y i luv u so much...u been always open d door for my...
today is a moody day..everybody is telling me bout his/her feeling...but did i ever tell them mine too?? I hope i can..but i cant do it..dunno why...I only can tell u
..Relationship wit bf is unstable lately ..and i dunno y...fall in luv wit someone???..How if i say yes...but it does not effect my life coz is impossible...well dbsk is my lover but lately they gone in my life coz I noe tat i only will coz them trouble...i noe u noe wat i mean...In luv wit somebody around me??? ya..i do lik someone but tat i noe is impossible coz it never success till now...so wat for put hope on it..as long i enjoy it then is ok liao....Who PM???I even cant un myself sometimes..betray myself??? dunno...hurt myself...mayb..
feel lik waiting someone to help me get rid out from the hole...i always feel so n now i'm waiting someone who can understand me n help me out..but tat person never seen...who can really understand me..I hope someday there someone there for me..Who in luv wit me?? only myself even my bf i hope is not...y?? coz i think he might find d wrong person coz i am....
i'm tired of controlling ppl life n my life..I can giv up others but not mine...mine is to help control the others....wat shud i do...i try to cry but it not gonna works...y nobody can un me..am i a freak for u.....look at me lik a freak....y they can be so popular n why i'm always wit those ppl..n it hurt so bad although i get used to it....I din get any benefit except see how their life goes on... I'm happy to noe them although they might forget bout me....Tq for those who appreciate me...My kind of ppl..for the moment i only find a few....tats d person i can talk to..at least he will un half half rather than none..but i dare not to talk bout it..
I losing my mind....I feel lik giving up all d guys n bac to zero......restart everything...coz i did something wrong??? no..coz it making me sad n depressed...
wat shud i do.....i nid some time..spend wit me sometime..I miss u so much tat i hope one day u will understand me n be with me always...I wont giv up on u..tats all i noe....I'm sry for wat i hav done but i luv u.

the finale has begun

wat a boring day....jz settle everything n now tomolo os the last day of lecture week n here goes study week n final...Time pass by so fast...seem lik din do anything at all....Dunno wat to do during the study week...Din plan bac KL coz nid to concentrate on my study since my performance is quite bad for previous sem...Haih...many thing happen...happy o sad....seem lik wind pass thru....nothing to talk today..got a bit dizzy...not feel so well..wanted to ajak them yamcha but PM d skill only manage few of them...giving up...try to stay at hostel n hav my personal time.....Hopefully everything will be okey...

First in UTAR..

Today I giv ppl scold...on fb...lantak la dia baca my blog o not...As I hav the rite too say watever i lik..jz lik he did on fb...at least I din shot him bac on fb..I talk to my bloggy bout it...I can tell i seldom(almost none) feel so "uncomfortable" wit ppl or even my fren..as all my fren, i'm fine adapt wit them...
Here the story goes...well i dare to say the truth...His name is Jeremy my coursemate..THIS SEMESTER he have been terminated n required to retake some of the sub in nx sem in order to continue his study..Consider 'HOLIDAY' for tis sem...I'm taking a retake subj where the only class he will go for THIS SEMESTER..Somehow our midterm exam (consist 10%, 3papar) is not conduct on lecture hour..n we hav to plan due to different time subj taken by us...Hence we ad make dicision n confirm the date n time...Since he did o did not come for tat day but we been discussing for some time liao bout midterm...other day i saw him come for practical class...coz we r busy wit d experiment n no time to hav a talk ..I ask him whether he wan to come for the exam...then he say "why i shouldn't come???"...I ma say if he wan i ma tell him d time n date if not then nvm, nothing lo..then his face turn black..I noe him well so i jz say the time n date to him..he record down o not is his personal behaviour la....Then settle tat case...
Today we having our tutorial at 12-1pm which hav been discussed wit lecture since last week...is a special plan where we slot a time for class... then today on fb..this is wat he say:" this is how my classmate notified me about classes.'hey do you want to come for the midterm, if you want i tell you, if not i dun want to tell you' and now today no one tell me about changes of time for the tutorial class. i came to the campus at 4pm for the 12-1pm class. It is not that i dun want to come to class. it's because you bitches didn't inform me a single message"...
This is wat i get for being kind to inform him...there only 3 ladies in tat class...so i'm the bitch....ya ..I am...then his the son of a bitch ....I get pissed off...By the way I wan to clarified something....tutorial is yesterday 4pm not today 4pm..Today suppose no tutorial....then why he come at 4pm.....I'm really 'blur ' lol....was tat my fault tat he din come for some lecture class n u blame us for not telling u..
Yesterday lecture change d date for one of the midterm paper n he din come too....N i'm gonna get my mouth shut...speechless
i'm not gonna explain so much jz giv u all hav a point of view bout this case....

May u rest in peace, my frenz

Lately there's alot of sad casses happen around me.
To our dear '2005 Ketua pengawas of SMK Seksyen 1 Bdr Kinrara', who passed away last wednesday evening 3.32pm at HKL. I'm sorry i wasnt there by ur side when u need me. Althougth we r not very close but once v r. I still rmb the first time knowing u..U impressed me alot..Tat time i was learning my mandarin while u ad can speak fluently. U r very special coz the only handsome malay guy who noe speak mandarin. u take this advantage meet alot of frens...Sometimes ppl try to critics bout malay infront of them..u din get mad but u try to advise them not to say them bad...tats why ppl less critics coz of u..haha..impressive...U help lots of ppl while there were spot check..thou u r the ketua pengawas but u still willing help them...inform them there is spot check n even help them to hide liquid paper n hp....we all rmb how kind u were to us.. how work hard u are....ur voice is still in my mind...when u shout while we were 'berkawat'....those strong voice which we obey n thou cant been heard anymore but is still fresh in my mind.Those day we went outdoor activities...u lead n help us a lot..Thou i forget r v once in a team but I always think u r always been here wit us. I'm so sorry for the past few month I dun hav the opportunity o guts to visit u. When i back to KL i meet our classmate. She told me tat u r sick (bone cancer)...I was shock and concern...She told me, u in last stage of cancer...but recovering after several chemotheraphy...I feel relief after heard tat and i tot u can make it...Tat time I only stay at Kl for few days...din spend some time visit u...Until last week..on facebook...Idrul post comment tat u hav leave us....My eyes were watery..tears fall in heart...Everything is too late..all I can say is I'm sorry if i done anything wrong to u. Hope our relaitionship will continues live on.....Azrin~
I'm sorry I dun hav a chance to hav a photo wit u....But u r always deep in my heart..

To our Kampar campus UTAR student...James Khor Wan Kai, 20; Yew Shy Gin, 19 and Yew Ghim Chnieh, 20. drowned after they were swept away by strong current at the Batu Berangkai waterfalls on sunday evening...All i can say it was faith..thou they leave us without a word.....It was a disaster for me..Although I not ur close fren but v r once Unimate. Mayb I hav seen u o may not...but is not important anymore...I hope u may rest in peace..my frens..